Friday 11 May 2012

Apakah ini Ya Allah..?

 But let there be spaces in your togetherness and let the winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another but make not a bond of love: let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.” 
- Kahlil Gibran

To be honest, entri kali ni luahan perasaan aku yg tak berkesudahan.*tak da kaitan lgsg dgn previous entri* Aku pun tak pasti apa yang aku rasakan skrg. Setiap kali aku terfikir pasal ko mesti hati aku tak keruan =( Jatuh cinta lagi..? Ya Allah,,please dont..!!


"Tabahkan hati awop sayamm.Berdoalah supaya Allah mjaga hati awk.Bukakn hati hny kpd jodoh awk yg btol  sj",
,a text from my girlfriend  =( 

Terlalu awal utk aku ckp yg aku dh cintakn ko. Yang pasti aku dh mula sukakn ko. Ko mungkin ckp yg ko sukakn aku jgk tp aku rs ko tak mksdkn pape pn. Pointless kan..? *np what are words by Chris Medina* .
Aku tak salahkan ko pn. Silap aku sbb bagi peluang utk ko knl aku. Dan yg pasti hati aku terlalu rapuh utk laki mcm ko. Makin lama aku kenal ko makin aku rasa ko lah orang yang aku cari selama ni. *Btol ke apa yg aku rs ni..? :(*

" I'm PRO at picking the WRONG person to like"

 Damn,this is so trueeeee.... dari dulu smpi skrg. Aku susah nk terima org yg sukakn aku  and at the end aku msti tsilap suka pada org yg tak da prasaan lgsg pn kat aku. Tragis kan..? *Aku tak tahu la ko bca tak entri aku ni. Aku harap ko tak baca sbb aku tak rasa ko nk tahu pn.*

"The easier you give your heart & dignity to boys, the cheaper you'll be, the less attractive you'll be and less precious you'll be" 

Tweet Dena Bahrin ni plak buat aku rasa mcm nk turn heartless. Lupakn apa yg tak sepatutnya aku ingat and do some changes.Tapi tak semudah itu. Aku pernah cuba utk jadi heartless sume ni tapi Allah swt tu Maha Hebat, Dia lgsg tak izinkan. Makin aku minta makin bnyk plak perasaan yg indah yg Dia kurniakan. )so mcm mna mau jadi heartless -.-"* Ya Allah, kali ni aku betul2 perlukan petunjukMu. Aku tak nak tersilap lagi. Aku tak nak tersungkur lagi. Aku tak nak kecewa lagi. =( Hara bila sampai je kat kampung halaman nnt, aku akan jumpa jawapan yang aku cari.. amin.

Cukup la kot smpi kat sini je..till then,,assalamualaikum -.-"


p/s : Aku yakin kalau ko jodoh aku..ko akan tetap cari aku satu masa nanti..aku tak harap apa2 pn.. aku tahu ko masih tunggu dia dan doa aku smoga korg bersama kembali bersatu dan bbahagia selamanya =) amin..

lettre' d'amour : Mungkin juga aku masih belum layak untuk jatuh cinta dengan manusia sebab sejujurnya aku masih belum berjaya jatuh cinta dengan Allah swt sepenuhnya. Allahualam :'(

sincerely ~amorlitteras~

Thursday 3 May 2012

A . Boy . Best . Friend

" I might call you Google because you have everything that I am looking for"


In my life I really want a boy best friend who will call me beautiful, and like my photos on facebook, commenting them saying things such as the fact he’s proud to have me as a bestfriend. One that I can call up, crying about other boys, and him saying he’ll beat the shit out of them for me. A boy bestfriend who will drive me around like he’s my big brother, and kiss me on my cheek/forehead when he knows I’m upset. One who becomes friends with my boyfriend and one who calls me up to see what I’m doing. I want a boy best friend who will tell me when I’m wrong, and force me into fixing things and apologizing because he knows that it will make things better for me. I just want a perfect boy best friend, who will love me and protect me from all the other boys.


Alhamdulillah, now i found one...thank you for always be there for me no matter what. :)

Talking about him really make me wanna shred some tears. He taught me how to stay strong in any ways. He accepts me for who i am. No drama.!! Enough with that ^^ *im not going to add any more details about him or you can ask me personally* hahahaha ;D

Another thing to be add on is that for me, bestfriend turns lover is a major turn off. Yess i believe that..!! It may sound silly somehow but i really cant accept that my bestfriend will turn up to be my dearest hubby. No way..! and im not going to destroy our great friendship just because of love.

*nada serius* 
"Eja nanti kalau ko dah jumpa calon suami make sure ko bawak dia datang jupe aku dulu..!! Ingat tu"
he said.,,hahahaha :D


p/s : He is now in Sydney and i miss him like crazy. Engineer in making. :) * He sent me a song from lady anebellum- just a kiss * ^^

lettre d'amour : A person who really loves you is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while everyone else still believes in the smile on your face.. :)

sincerely ~amorlitteras~